Finding Answers....

Many questions to hold

but no answers by

I am trying to figure out

to know how and why



I think I will get an answer

in a day or two

but why does everyday goes

with no remains or so



I will get an answer

for that I know

but how will I find one

when the beginning is unknown



It hammers my head

day and night

all i have to do

is to keep my lips tight



I have nothing to do

as its not in my hands

I watch the tear drops

that make like rain dance



To know who is behind

and what can be done

had it been me

would have quicken before long



I despair myself

for such a long time

Patience begins to question

where am I......

Being A Soul mate!!

We always make benchmarks when it comes to choosing someone as life partner. Some or other, or even all of us feel hassled that this should be or that should be the necessities of a person. Some say he/she should be good looking. Everyone quests for the accomplishment no matter how flawed we are.

Searching a good looking, moderate, decent is always a first wish list on the pages. Boys search even some like the contemporary movie star look a likes and yes, even girls do the same, no matter how we ourselves look. But isn’t that a crucial competition or rather we say a deprivation to our own minds?

If someone selects you over a movie star, how would you feel? Disregarded, disrespected? Isn’t the same we all face? But we never want a denunciation. Well, as the age grows, we look someone alike to us. If we are mediocre, we look for average and same wise. But if we do this kind of thinking from long before may be we won’t be discontented. What do you think?

Now the common question asked to every human who have attained the age of matrimony, that what do you search in your soul-mate? The collective answer found is “Loving, Caring and Understanding”

So do we realize the same as we say?

Loving is not the way who would say “I love you” all the day, all the time. Think for a time will come when you will sigh, or feel exasperated when he/she says “I love you” and then all un-necessary squabbles evolves like “would you stop that?”, “c’mon don’t irritate me with cheesy lines” ,or even it goes like this “do you do the same what you say”. All kind of chaos happens, and finally the “love” dies.

Loving, in my outlook, is something like loving all his/her essentials, hobbies, likings, interests, and most probably his/her state of mind. If he likes to eat biryani, love the way he eats. If she likes to talk about her own viewpoint, love to listen it serenely. Loving each other is loving all about each other. You both have to sacrifice something, that’s not compromise my friends, that’s the way you love him/her.

Then comes the part called Caring. Yes we care people we love. But it’s not necessary that you have to rudely say that. When he likes to have sweets and you know it’s not good for him, you shout at him “stop eating sweets, or u will fall sick”. It’s not care my pals. It’s an un-necessary worry.

Worrying and caring are two flanks of coin. You can exactly worry about his/her health or anything else by not being rude or yelling at him/her. You can do that best by saying “honey, it’s better not to eat sweets now, you would fall sick and I will never like that”. Dealing everything with the gentle word called Care will always save your marital even non-martial relationships. When it comes to caring, it come to the equally relevant word, Compassion.

Compassion is something which can’t be termed by heavy verdicts, but can be assumed with one word called “Being selfless”. Every girl/boy will always seek generosity in her/his life partner. And it is actually true as observed by many relationship analysts. So there if one partner gives his/her selflessness to the other, logically with progression of time, the other reciprocates the same. Then they say the relationship is successful. Practically its very true friends that all relationships have pros and cons. But overcoming it together is what matters at the end of the day.

The last very intriguing aspect is Understanding. There has been a constant disagreement is what really is Understanding each other is all about? Understanding, I believe is something where you put yourself in his/her situation, analyze it and then come to a conclusion, that “he/she needs me, I should be the most supportive”. Supportive and Understanding doesn’t mean commit anything negative and pampering to the part of being spoilt. You should be well aware of what he/she wants, make him/her understand and let him/her not do any crime. Where else, if he/she is in situation of good conducts like helping his/her parents, or something creative, you can go ahead and become his/her support.

It is the main concern, to understand what is in his/her mind. This is all because we need to know each other appropriately to run the conjugal life together. In ancient scriptures, it’s written that a husband and a wife are two wheels of the house, a family, a bond they create. If one wheel goes in one direction and the other goes in some other direction, there we can well understand how the chariot of the life will move ahead. Yes, it will certainly breakdown.

So understanding each other’s mentality is prerequisite and then a quintessence of support is incredibly necessary. It’s not that Rome was built in one night. Same wise, relationships are never fruitful in a day. It will take time to be the most happening one. It will go on rough patches and also on the smooth pavements. All is required the essence of all the three I described above and two vital essentials called Patience and Trust.

Love, Live, Care, Nurture the seed of your relationship, it will always give you sweet fruits. This is very truth of science in our lives.

Sruti

14^th February 2014

Genocide Of Mind

It is said from the ancient scriptures that human is the most pious & most desirable form for every life created on the earth. The mind created in human, is the most complex feature ever been made. It is the most skillful machine on the earth that anybody can invent. No matter, there can be many more in the whole universe or beyond. Human Mind is what this Solar system has ever got.

I am flabbergasted of the inordinate activities of the human mind and the approaches that convinces the whole world in it’s espouse. The times from the ancient ages has been changed so drastically, that we cant recognize or compare those with our times. Yes, something hasn't been changed that's the corruptive minds of the earth.  It‘s going more complex with daily forge of emotions and feelings we go through.

The world has been mixed up of two major trade-off emotions: LOVE and HATE. Where Love united people by different revolutionaries like Swami Vivekananda, Mahatma Gandhi, Mother Teresa , Martin Luther King and few more, Hate  has always empowered itself with cataclysm and carnage making more human bizarre barbarity  than the beautiful baby smiles of newborns and the peaceful brotherhood.

This age is named to the age of atrocity, criminal intensity, human slaughter and genocides. People seek religious paths and spiritualism but vindicate the other pathways. People are actually baffled of the way they want to follow and the ways that are laid in front of them. Knowing the good actions also, people seek the mode of jealousy and envious attitude to even the frivolous actions made. People are undergoing privation of not knowing what the reality is and what's not real.

There is a torpid growth to every good thing in this world. Relationships are treated with animosity and thus it is at the stake. There have been constant reports on the barbaric honor killings, gene homicides and inordinate suicides. Some of the major reasons are thought-to-be-failed –blood relations and effortless relationships either marital or platonic.  People have overgrown the climbers and creepers of envy, selfishness with an outward show-off of “yes, we care”.

There has been a formidable barrier in minds of general that claims to self –pity and vivid self centered. People have certainly closed their eyes to see the other person is also of same blood line. My question is why such atrocities, madness of hurting whom we call our own? We are self depriving and making ourselves atheistic, impractical selfish morons.

We are so much overwhelmed with self pity and sympathetic to our own condition that we close our eyes to what humans are suffering from. I haven't got an answer to why we keep on hurting our own blood our own neighbor, our own friend, our own family without getting concerned about what they feel, what are they undergoing. 

God has created a world called “Family”. Quoting from a feature film, Family is such a gathering of not necessarily a blood line but a gathering of true love, care, compassion who is always ready to fight the world for each other, to teach and make the righteous thing, to not be judgmental rather to be submissive, to cherish every fruit of luck, happiness and even burden of the life together.

If the great saints have rightly said that “Vasudham Kutubhakam” means Earth is a Family. Then why not we all of us be one? It's said, “Charity begins at home”. Every good deed, good thought is started from ourselves. So, let us set an example, and then ultimately I presume, all the battles of emotions, selfishness, jealousy and envy will be overcome.

Deja V`u Of Love..

“I had loved you and always will... no matter what...."

I woke up with a loud uproar of the alarm clock. What was that? Was it a delusion?? Or a reality that's veiled. Will Akshay indeed say that?? Silly me!! Why would he?

Hi Folks, It’s me Simraan, Simraan Chauhan.

And this … is my Love story. You must be wondering who is Akshay??

Akshay Sahani, Raindrop of my drought ridden heart. I and Akshay had been childhood pals since both of our parents were good neighbors in Noida. With the gradual progress of age, the amity was still well-preserved. Even If we were poles apart for the career we chose, we were like best pals to our eras. There was no single day that he wouldn’t talk to me, more remarkable was his pleasant yet crazy surprises of coming over to meet me. But he never showed up any feelings of love. Perhaps I am eclipsed with the novels and fairy tales.

Some years later my parents moved to Delhi. But I found my job in Noida and naturally, I got to stay near their place. Akshay's parents pampered me more than him and he was always humorously irritate me. I was never worried for being far from my parents.

Until that day came, when Akshay said he wants to marry Nishita, one from close knit colleagues. I was taken back seeing someone else in his life. Just involuntarily nodded affirmative with everybody else.

All plans to the marriage ceremony was made upon. Somewhat I couldn’t battle with the fact. But for his contentment, I tried to soothe my defeated heart. The day of engagement came, while everyone was busy with merry making, I was holding back those tears, as I couldn't see Akshay putting that ring to Nishita. I rushed out from the bustling crowd.

I sat at my desk, crying of losing someone, I felt like scribbling my distress on those papers lying around. “Akshay, I Love you". It was going excruciating for me. I didn't want to stay there, because I couldn’t endure it. I thought of that dream I saw. All I could find in my hands was tears, regret that I had lost my friend, my Love...

After that I decided of going to my home permanently. But still, I had to brace up with the courage of attending his wedding after three months. I was not even bothering for my parents’ sudden wedding plans for me. So, I thought of searching another job. But still my attention went back to him, our childhood. With every reminiscence, I was getting wounded, aching to every nook and corner as if I am about to lose entirety forever.

The day of wedding arrived. I couldn't sojourn my emotional outburst, so thought to escape rather than to face the cataclysm of my life...

I was about to move out when Chandu Kaka, their old household help, called me and said "Akshay baba, wants to meet you, please come to his roof top room." I couldn’t understand. He was in his white Dhoti, waiting for the ladies in the house to have turmeric paste ceremony. He gestured me, calling me up. I moved up since I couldn’t resist. But I knew this is not a movie that if I say, everything will change.

I came up to him, substituting the sadness, with forced smile.

"Hey! Get ready, Nishita is waiting for her bridegroom". 

It was heart-rending out again because I couldn't abide even to my words. But then he stopped me and said

“Where are you going? Won’t you put turmeric paste to your husband-to-be?"

I was flabbergasted the way he said.

"My husband-to-be???"

He said "Yes my bride.”

He was smirking. I asked again.” what are you saying?"

Before he would say anything, my mother came and said "Akshay has said us everything 2 months back. I knew you are getting married to him, but he had asked us to surprise you". Akshay and his cracked surprises! But I still stood in state of astonishment. The girls standing behind started giggling and among them was Nishita. She came and said," c'mon Simraan lets go, brides are not allowed to see their grooms huh!!"

I couldn't even realize what’s going, until every rituals were over. I was in Akshay's room waiting for him to come. I was more curious than a newlywed should be, for I had numerous questions. I was in thought of what, how and when such things happen? How could Akshay marry me, when he wanted to marry Nishita? In this, I didn't knew he was standing just beside me. He said,

“Akshay, I Love you"...

I was awestruck how he got that paper I scribbled. Then he took me into arms and said

“I Love you too. Stupid, didn't you have much guts to tell me this. I was just waiting for you for years".

I couldn't still regain my senses. He then took me close and said.

"I got this piece of your heart from your room when I wanted to confess you… I had loved you and always will... no matter what happens in life. “

Finally the incompleteness is accomplished.  And all that happened was just a miracle. All I had, was a smile of joy and happiness with tears of wonders of how God played such a beautiful chapter of my life.

-Sruti

14th Feb 2014

Thoughts...

Thoughts we presume,
       thoughts that die.
thoughts that always come
       in every passer-by.

We think and think 
      to inscribe our thoughts
we refute thoughts
      and we defy thoughts

Some think agnostic
     some antagonistic
we fight we preach
     thoughts together

A man is known 
    for thoughts he keeps
we recognize good or bad
    by thoughts we make

Had there been no thoughts
  Will all of us become same?

Yes thoughts makes us different by what we always make. 
thoughts divide us  and even unites us

Thoughts brings war and brings peace 
unified for together makes us peaceful..

So it our Choice to be against ourselves or for ourselves .... 

-Sruti
3rd nov 2012